So its Sunday morning and I'm a little restless.  I don't know why but for some reason my world isn't right.  I was sitting here watching my favorite show (The Chris Matthews Show) and just had a need to get some things off my chest.

I have started dating.  You know the old fashioned thing of meeting someone (not sleeping with them), going out (not sleeping with them), getting to know each other (not sleeping with them) and seeing how compatible you are.  This has really been a mixed bag.  Some guys have dazzled me with their youth and vitality and others have wowed me with their intellect and street smarts.  Now others have not been so good.  I don't want to go into why we didn't sync but some just weren't my cup of tea.  I was talking with my best friend about this subject and he said that I'm just going to have to be patient.  And everyone that knows me know that one thing I am not is patient, but I have been learning the ways of patience and realized that I do have a streak of patience in me.  So I guess I will have to wait for the guy that is willing to stimulate my mind before he stimulates my heart.  Or the guy that is willing to call me in the morning just to say I wanted to make sure that the first thing someone said to you is good morning.  Or a guy that would take me on a long walk and be willing to hold my hand.  Or a guy that just wants to talk about everthing and nothing at all.  Maybe this is a fantasy or the dreams of a lost romatic but I believe that the possibility of love demands that we all recieve the type of person that can make our hearts sing.  So until then I will keep searching and hoping for the right guy for me.

More later.......

Well, it’s definitely been awhile since I have written something.  It seems lately I have had less to say and wouldn't want to fill up my blog with useless words.  But today, I just thought I would have another random thoughts day.

For the last couple of months I have taken a "No Sex" pact.  I can hear some of the snickers from some of my friends now.  Now I know that may bring up the idea of why would I do something like that?  To be honest I don't know why I did it at that time.  But I came to the rationalization that physical pleasure is not really what I need right now.  I know it probably could be said more poetically, but I need more.  Actually I hope for something real.  I think I have come to the moment in my life where I am looking for inner fulfillment.  You know, looking for the God inside of my self period.  This doesn't mean I don't yearn for a physical explosion but for now, I can honestly do without.  I have spent some time trying to reconnect with those things that are important to me (friends, hobbies, etc.).  Now I know there are some connections that I can never reconnect no matter how much I would like but for those I have some control over, I will try to mend and renew.  But to those I have no control over I will just put it out into the universe that I am open to receiving them.

Hope is an interesting concept.  For me, hope has been something that I have always had and always something I have wanted.  I have hoped for love even though it is all around me.  But in that hopeful search I found something really valuable.  I found me.  It was Martin Luther King Jr. that said, "If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all."  What I hope is that I can keep moving forward.  And to be totally honest, I know I can do it.

So, in spite of all the mountains of today I can honestly say today was a good day.  I was able to travel to South America last week and I am also on the verge of a big promotion.  But most importantly, I'm happy with me.  Now I'm not happy with me everyday but today I can honestly pat myself on the back.  So, to all of you, peace and blessings.

Quote of the day: "The kingdom of God is within you"

First, I want to thank all that read, posted and since message concerning my previous blog. 

I thought because of the lovely responses I received that I should actually go a little further with this topic.

Let's first start with why I chose the title, "What is God?"  “What” is defined as “an interrogative expressing inquiry about the identity, nature, or value of an object or matter.”  In this discussion I didn’t want to use God simply in humanistic terms which could make him seem temporary or frail.  If I had used the term “Who” (what or which person or persons) it would already establish the premise that God is a person, which would mean that I would have inadvertently limited the discussion to the humanistic characteristics to God.  Now, one could have made the argument that when anybody (person) talks about God that they must use normal informational transmission methods to describe something that is truly beyond human comprehension and even then those normal methods would not give adequate justice to HIM because he is truly beyond our limited methods of communication.  But who am I to make an argument for someone else?

Also, what is wrong with calling God a thing?  One of the definitions for thing is “An entity, an idea, or a quality perceived, known, or thought to have its own existence.”  Another is “a spatial entity.”  Another one is “Something referred to by a word, a symbol, a sign, or an idea; a referent.” Couldn’t God fit into the category of being an idea or quality perceived known to have its own existence?  In any discussion of religion or religious entities I understand the discourse can become heated and passions flare, but let us not forget that the bible is a great book but the dictionary is another good book.  It should be used as a tool that uplifts the conversation.

In Exodus 3:14 (let’s all turn our bibles now), it states, “And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you.”  As far as my interpretation goes, in this section God is telling Moses what he should tell people his name is.  Actually he tells him to call him אהיה אשר אהיה. (OK, I have no idea what that means, but hey, that’s what he told them.)  I do know that the literal translation from the Hebrew text is “I shall be who I shall be.”  To me this shows that God stands alone but is here with us all the time.  It’s probably one of his most compassionate moments because it really shows his love for us.  It kind of says that you may put him on a throne in heaven but I would rather sit on a throne in your heart so that he can always nurture our love.

No matter what we call him God is always going to be who he (or she) is.  And no matter what we call him he loves us.  That is something we can all agree on.

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